Fear is what keeps us alive

So I was there and I wish I could die. Not as though a tragic thing. I wish I could die and feel forever the way I feel when I'm flying, when I'm kissing, when I'm loving, when I'm with you, when I feel loved, when I feel cared, and important, and safe and free... I wish I could live and don't feel so small, so human, so weak worrying about all these stupid little things so insignificant in face of all the things I could die to feel forever. I wish I could feel less courage 'cause maybe then I would only feel.